Tuesday, April 28, 2009

My Heart is Torn

These past two days have been busy for me although I'm on break from school. I have had the opportunity to go to the two ministries I'm interested in working at once I graduate from language school on 14 August 09. They are La Carpio and Renacer; both working with teenage girls.

La Carpio is a severely improvised town of more than 4000 people, of which 75% are children. At the end of the main street (the only paved one) of the town is the one and only dump or land field for all of the San Jose area. The majority of these precious people are Nicaraguan refugees from their civil war. Many of them are illegally here and therefore unable to find legal work.

These people are some of the poorest in Costa Rica. I don't know the exact statics but the percentage of those who are hungry and without food is much, much higher than the percentage of the entire country.

CFCI has a huge influence in this community. They have an incredible program for the teenage girls there. They have so many needs and few workers to meet these needs. They have a school program for them; starting a lunch program for the girls at the school so they can spend the entire day learning and not just half of it. They also teach the girls English; have a classes for them to learn new trades; a program for some of the girls to work so that they also can have an education and not turn to other ways of earning money. There is a Saturday program that they do a Bible study, craft time, game time, etc. There are so many opportunities to be used here and I can see myself being there in a heartbeat.

Then today came and I went up the mountains to see Renacer (the ministry that God used to bring me here). Renacer is a year long program for girls 12-18 who have addictions. Most of these girls have come off the streets and a lot don't have family or their family chose not to be involved. They have room for about 50 girls at a time.

The campus is a beautiful campus that is nestled into the forest close to the top of the mountain. Palm trees line the sidewalks to the houses that the girls live in. Today was the weekly move everything out and clean. The girls all were smiling and respectful as we toured and spoke to some.

At this time they don't have a missionary up there and have been praying that God would send one to them. There are a lot of similarities of what I did back in the states but it would be centered around Christ! The one person who can forever change a life! The one person I wanted to talk about to my kids in the states but couldn't due to ethics.

I had really hoped that I would not feel right at one of the places, but that didn't happen. Now I'm torn, I want to be at both! There are pros and cons to both. I know God will use me whichever one I choose. But I want to be where God wants me to be and where I can be used the most. So now it's time to enter into a season of specific prayer. Please enter into this time with me as I seek His leading and direction. I'm excited to see where God has me and I can't wait to start working with these girls.

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