Anxiety

In August I wrote a blog about my concern that I might have been developing asthma since I was having hard times breathing, feeling like some one was sitting on my chest and etc. Well, it turned out that I did not have asthma but actually was having anxiety attacks. It makes sense looking back because I was full of anxiety but I’d never had experience such thing before. Thankfully I only had one while I was in the states and one the day I got back here.

However today the anxiety attacks have begun again, I’m sure due to the grieving of Brady’s death. I think that today it might have been brought on by having to talk so much about his death. Everyone wanted to know what happened and so I had to tell them over and over; thus reliving it over and over. I also have a lot of anxiety about going to bed, afraid if what dreams might come. But thankfully God has just been so amazing in answering our prayers that I have not had any bad dreams about Brady’s death. (Thank you so much for praying for this and continue to pray for it.) Then there’s also coming home to an empty house that gets me every time right now. So all of this I assume is causing the anxiety attacks.

Please pray with me that these anxiety attacks will be under control. They can get out of control pretty quick and turn into panic attacks and that’s a whole other monster. So please pray that these will go away and that the peace I do feel deep down inside will consume every part of me, thus calming the anxiety.

Again, thank you so much for your prayers. I can really feel them and I’m doing better due to them; although it’s still pretty rough. I was happy that I only cried maybe every other hour today instead of every 15-30 minutes. In fact I’ve had few tears since I have been home. (I think I overloaded the tear factory and blew the circuits!) Again thank you for praying and being an encouragement to me.