Today has been a day of frustrations but of many praises as well. Over the past week I have been feeling very inadequate and frustrated with my Spanish, writing lessons and teaching lessons. It’s been overwhelming. So as I struggle through my overwhelming of inadequacy and learn to depend on God (which has been my prayer this last week to see my need of dependence on Him) I have been blessed to have two co-workers who are so encouraging.
Not only that, today we got to see several prayer requests answered in God’s perfect timing. Today, as most mornings, Tiffany, Rachel and I prayed over the requests of the girls, Renacer and our own. We have been praying for over a month for Sylvia, a missionary from Mexico who has been working here with the girls since 2002, and her paperwork for residency. She was very fearful that she would have to leave next week because of many problems with paperwork. Praise God that as of this week her paperwork is here and she is now in active process of residency and does not have to leave the country!
Yesterday I asked my boss when I could start doing the individuals and I felt as if she was reluctant. She didn’t say no yet didn’t really say yes. I did however take it as a go ahead. We prayed for whatever reservations my boss may have over me doing the individuals and that they would be dissolved. The not even half an hour later, she asked me to do an individual with our most advanced girl who is about ready to go back home. She is very closed off and has a lot of hurts. I was a little concerned that I would have to spend an hour and half with her because it’s hard to get her to talk and be honest for that long.
Oh but God is always amazing! He provided the words and the conversation. Oh she has hurts and a lot of fears about letting Christ come into her heart. Her biggest fear is His authority because the authorities in her life have always hurt her, abused her or used their authority over her. She does have a tender heart and she does want to know things but the actual decision is scary and she is not at a point in which she is ready to make that. She knows all the steps and has heard about Christ for a year and half but now it’s up to her. Pray for her that her heart may be softened to Him and His calling and that she will understand that He does truly love her and wants to give her abundant life.
This morning we also prayed that I would be able to understand one of our new girls in the initial interview today. She mumbles her words and I find it so hard to understand her, which is a must to be able to write up a report and a treatment plan. Praise God that for the majority I was able to understand her.
I love that even in the midst of frustrations and feelings of inadequacy that He will still answer prayers when we seek Him even in the midst of learning how to fully depend on Him.
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