Raging War

This week started off super rough! First I had a great weekend with God, but a very hard one as He and I are working through some hard areas of my life and I’m having to rage war against satan and the lies he’s trying to get me to believe and the cycle I find myself in constantly. Then Monday came, the first hour of work I find out that two of our girls ran away on Sunday.

This wouldn’t have been such a huge surprise if it were some from the beginning phases who were struggling. No, it was one of the most advanced girls in the program who had been here for over a year. She had been doing great, working hard, growing and falling in love with Jesus, just fun to be around. The other was a girl who graduated several years ago and has been living here ever since because she has no place to go.

Sadly these girls ran away and what’s even worse is that they have no place to go. Both have no family, no one involved in their process. I’m terrified for the first girl because she lived by prostitution and I’m afraid she will fall back into that habit. I’m praying that they both will remember what they have learned here and that those things will flood their minds and that they will look for a church to help them.

Right after that I found out that another girl who graduated over several years ago, and has been living with us for the same reasons, no place to go, her brother was released from jail last week and over the weekend was murdered. This was her last hope she had for a possible way out of here. Now she feels like God hates her, is picking on her and so forth.

Then Tuesday, was just a hard day. (Thankfully I had a great night’s sleep because I went to bed at 7:30pm, I was just drained of everything.) I had the conversation with the girl I told you about in the last post. I began the series with Débora (3rd phase) over heaven and hell, angels, demons, satan, spiritual warfare of our minds and the armor of God. This will last for the next 5 weeks and satan always hates these lessons and tries to mess things up. It went pretty well so I felt good until I taught Ester (2nd phase) and the lesson on prayer.

Ester is a hard group right now. There are several girls who really want to learn but the rest are indecisive and then there´s two, three, that are causing HUGE problems. I had to call the group out last week on their attitudes in class which seem to have some impact. However there is a girl who I wrote about in an early blog who accepted Christ as her Savior and transformed immediately. Unfortunately, she now hates God and doesn’t believe in Him and has returned back to her satanic beliefs.

There is another girl who was doing great in her process and was such a joy to be around and was growing in her identity in God. (I’m not sure if she has a relationship with God but she had been seeking.) Well she and the other girl have “fallen in love” and now she does whatever the other girl (with the satanic beliefs) does. So now she is hateful, depressed, cutting on herself, hates God, doesn’t believe in Him, and just causing problems. But when you get her one on one the girl who she really is shows up a little.

It just broke my heart yesterday as they affected the rest of the class. I pray over that room and that class and I kick satan out of there but then they bring him right in with them. I had them on each side of me and the darkness that I felt was just awful and sickening. It took everything in me to not cry. I left very discouraged but trying to live in the promises of God. He is in control.

If you think of it will you pray for this cabin, Ester, and for the spiritual warfare that is being raged on campus, in the lives of these girls and even in myself.